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As we grow older in life we realize that you will come across an enemy. Those who think the do not have an enemy are fooling themselves. In most cases your enemy is within. The persona that you carry deep within ,that you do not know or care to meditate on, to banish or keep as far away from you as possible. Spiritually people are lacking so much so, that they allow themselves to pick up habits, that are not healthy to those around them or to themselves.
In some cases do not see these character traits because they may be adored with others due to the varied relationships that they have outside of there home. In my case I dealing with one such person, who is undoubtedly adored for the work that she does. However, it my understanding that she is not the cause and affect of those in which she inspires. The advice that she gives is to an uncommon person that taps into her knowledge. This does not apply in ones life if you are the cause and affect. It only applies when you come to the table with solutions. The solutions only apply if you acknowledge your part in the cause. This is something that I try to share in my house, however it is not taken to heart in a positive way. Because she can not see past her own nose. Shortsightedness is the problem and lack of vision outside the tunnel is the cause to mistrust and what looks like manipulation.
So what are these characteristics that have manifested within us? I can only answer this from observation of others and by using myself as a catalyst to understanding what it is exactly that I am observing. In my life I have a long term relationship with someone that has not given me the same respect and honor that they require in return. It leaves me feeling dry and empty. I settle in day after day, wondering what it is that I can do in order to fix the misaligned balance that I seek to have in my life. What is it that I need to do? This questions often pops up in my mind, and as I know it is deeply embedded within my heart of hearts.
The demon of evil that I must deal with daily is one that does not know no boundaries. It breaks all rules applied even the ones applied by its vessel. It sort of lives above the law of its own creation. So this leaves me to believe that the laws are set in place to protect, said evil, and no outside entity. So the question is, how do I know this? Well in my years, I myself have created laws and boundaries that should have been respected. But somehow I did not follow myself, which would have benefited the third party. This led to disagreements and a misguided relationship with those who were under such interaction with me.
If you expect someone to be on time then you should do the same. If you expect someone to give you equal footing in a relationship then in return, you must do the same. However because the human ego is so intricate you do not do so, you find you way out of the broken law, so that it suits your comfort level.
so is this something that I am facing in my life today? I believe so. I believe that deeply with all that I am. I know that it sounds like I allowed myself to be embedded in such a relationship, but that was based on a profound love and adoration's. Now it has come to the point in which I am unable to show this adoration because I do not feel that it is returned. I feel controlled and stifled at every turn I take in my own home.
So how does today's actions play on tomorrow outcome for my life? Do I need to bump forward? Do I need to sit down and analyze the situation further? What do I need to do? What are the characteristics of evil? Am I over reaction and analyzing this too deep?
Help me?
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